I've had this painting around for ages. Ofcourse, it is huge. I painted it on a wooden pannel back in 2021 and it since has become iconic in some of my video work on YouTube. And yes there have been people asking to purchase it. But as you can imagine - the logistics of sending a wooden pannel. Never mind.
So the main concept is two groups, the feeling of being grounded and nurtured vs the feeling of being controled or upheaved. The top flower is a certain community of souls that are nurturing and they are giving to eachother and themselves in a forgiving, caring way, while the bottom flower is - well, tilted and in a sense they two represent the human government(s) today.
I suppose that I also spoke of the war in the first version of the painting as you can see the leafs were totally different - and there was a feeling of impending war at the time. And as you know war came. The second version of the painting (I painted over the original) has curved leafs. Just a few. To soften the painting and give it a gentler quality.
I also included a fairy on a flower there. As a kind of dreamer - i suppose that would be me.
And yes the initial painting i did in a night, while talking to my father's soul and asking about my journey. I did also speak of certain abuse in the family tree through the painting as an undercurrent of messages came through my father's side of the family, mainly about child abuse and that being covered up at home.
The hardest thing of that being - that sometimes we don't remember what happened.
"God, I just don't know."
Then later i explored the painting a bit further adding more interesting hues to the leafs. Perhaps it is wise to take some closeup shots.
It's a great painting. It lives with me to this day though I did many times think of selling it.
So, in this Mantra, I have chosen the painting as the main piece unconsciously. In that time I was going through a lot and felt very - forgiven in a sense. And that my family trauma could finally be lifted yet nothing made any sense anymore.
The Gayatri mantra states in translation:
We meditate on that most adored Supreme Lord, the creator, whose effulgence (divine light) illumines all realms (physical, mental and spiritual). May this divine light illumine our intellect.
Savitur is the god of Motion, the god of light and supposedly the god of the sun. At the time, we were staying at a cottage - the keyring said Savitur on it. Which was peculiar. Here is my interpretation of the Gayatri mantra together with some traditional interpretations:
There was a problem with the house where we lived. Someone died there. Two people died mysteriously on the property. There was a cemetary near by - ghosts came walking through the house creaking the floor boards. Two dogs died. It was a hard place. We later moved to another house, calling it "Casa del Sol" - house of the sun, which has been a travelling title with potential homes.
Still - just have to shine through the darkness. You sometimes don't even know what you're in for but you keep going.
I suppose travelling with us somewhat, the painting has been a sort of guiding light and stimulator to find the sun even in the darkest spaces of consciousness, which also does happen in my life. ofcourse.
Perhaps in truth the flowers are suns. The currency here in Peru is Sol - sun. And the call is just to keep going, stay alive. - Or to repent?
Perhaps at some points of the mantra it really feels like someone just saying -
"God, I just don't know...."
Psychic or not.
Much love
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